Bonnie

I have an aunt named Bonnie.

She is the only one I can tell loves me.

I am not special to anyone

And that’s why I’m sad all the time

My parents trained me to be perfect

Like a little baby doll

I have no value if I am me

Just sit be pretty and make money

I will never forgive my parents

For their lies and deception

For my father forgetting his first daughter

For making me his only daughter

My parents do not love me for me

I have never felt love

And that’s what hurts so much

I’m so cold and unfeeling I can’t be touched

I have an aunt named Bonnie

And I can tell that she loves me

She is the only person who loves me

She would never hurt me

I think my heart may be broken forever

I will never forgive my parents

I will never forgive the 20-year lie

I will never forgive them for this life

There is something I can’t tell you here, reader

But just know it’s bad, the lie

It so bad that I don’t know how to cope with it without lying to everyone I know

I just want to be special

Nobody loves me

So I’ll pack my things

Glass shattered in the hallway

I lost everything

Can we be normal for just a moment

I have something to say

I want to be somewhere else

Where the trees grow tall and the grass is green

I have this Aunt called Bonnie

And I love her back